5 senseless senses

step from beyond the veil...
to see nothing real
to touch fire
to smell the unmistakeable stench of emptiness
to hear the screams of a help once cried
to taste what is ; what isn't.

five senseless senses
and your life lingers upon an earth floor
inbetween the right and wrong.
they dont exsist.
they will never exsist.


anger.
joy.
pain.
pride.
proof of exsistance ?
emotion.

remove the daggers from where it hurts the most,
and stand just to fall again.
stand close to the edge of a faulty cliff,
just to feel the danger, if only it were thrill you seeked...
no answers there.

thoughts.
thinking.
verbally mishaps.
wants.
needs.

needless to say nothings the same.
reaching deep.
just because you know theres change.
coming up empty handed.
breathing feels strange.

hope just flew away...
lost those five senseless senses.
now all you can do is just wait.

closed curtains and practiced lines...

Not so sure this worth it...writing it down and all; outdated , its been held in for way too long.
It seems like yesterday when i knew nothing more than speaking what was on my mind
today its behind a thick line of pain and confusion
...thunder storms;raining..damaging winds; tantrums; let alone the fears.
Fears that just seem to manufacture themselves...
and I cant place it on my heart, should it even deserve a feeling?
I could hate until blue in the face and love till my last move...
looks like I'm doing it in a mirror; I'm watching myself make the wrong move
and for a moment I trust this image
for a moment I cant look away,but ill cry if i do.
The last time I let myself come to tears I ended up being stood up proved wrong.
Almost like a slap in the face.
Its behind a thick line of pain and confusion...
and thinking of how much I care for this one girl; remembering her smile seems to do the trick until I notice the...the blank space. its grey and motionless;but i do love
and i do...hate that curtain and those practiced lines; and I'll just keep taking pictures ...
pictures that paint smiles and hide anger. & ill keep loving this one girl ... she reminds me of happiness and ill sit here with my anger pain and confusion until I see her again.

I salvaged emotion form the last mental to blow and turned it into hope, and I'm hoping for a better tomorrow. no expectations...and for some reason I'm glad i made it through today but i know its worst for someone else. Its nothing more than life itself taking course i would guess I'm just busy pouting upon its equation...