Not so sure this worth it...writing it down and all; outdated , its been held in for way too long.
It seems like yesterday when i knew nothing more than speaking what was on my mind
today its behind a thick line of pain and confusion
...thunder storms;raining..damaging winds; tantrums; let alone the fears.
Fears that just seem to manufacture themselves...
and I cant place it on my heart, should it even deserve a feeling?
I could hate until blue in the face and love till my last move...
looks like I'm doing it in a mirror; I'm watching myself make the wrong move
and for a moment I trust this image
for a moment I cant look away,but ill cry if i do.
The last time I let myself come to tears I ended up being stood up proved wrong.
Almost like a slap in the face.
Its behind a thick line of pain and confusion...
and thinking of how much I care for this one girl; remembering her smile seems to do the trick until I notice the...the blank space. its grey and motionless;but i do love
and i do...hate that curtain and those practiced lines; and I'll just keep taking pictures ...
pictures that paint smiles and hide anger. & ill keep loving this one girl ... she reminds me of happiness and ill sit here with my anger pain and confusion until I see her again.
I salvaged emotion form the last mental to blow and turned it into hope, and I'm hoping for a better tomorrow. no expectations...and for some reason I'm glad i made it through today but i know its worst for someone else. Its nothing more than life itself taking course i would guess I'm just busy pouting upon its equation...
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